I'm never going to feel the same way about Ellen ever again. I don't even know how many times I've complained about her and her attitude. How rude she always is, how she is always picking a fight with me, but when I saw her this morning, it was like a had some kind of epiphany. Maybe it was her that had the epiphany, that made me realize that I shouldn't complain about her so much. What I should be doing is trying to be the good one, as I always am, and try to get her to come around. We're sisters, she's all I have and I'm all she has as a sister. There are not other siblings and I just want us to get along. I see the relationship between Vanessa and her sister, and yeah, they fight, but they also love each other and would do anything for one another. I don't know if I can say that about Ellen and I. I know that it hurts mom to see us fight. When mom finds us fighting, I look at her face and you can just see the pain that she feels when we argue. That makes me feel like a bad person. I guess I've just decided that from now on, I'm going to try my best to get along with Ellen, forget about the past and focus on the future. I don't want us to end up like mom and her older sister did. Now, mom wishes that she had a sister and I wish that I had an aunt. I don't want to one day have children and have them grow up not knowing their aunt Ellen. Everything between us is changing as of now. Even earlier when we hugged and she apologized for acting the way she did, I knew that everything was going to be different. And, I couldn't be happier about that.